::I hate my job.. everything seems to have just crashed and burnt for the past few weeks. i'm being reprimanded for almost everything.. and i sick and tired of it! sometimes i just feel like throwing in the towel.. but i cant. i mean can i get some slack pls? its not like i go AWOL or sth. i mean its the first time i take mc for a shift since i joined my vocation.. and what's with all the black faces? its such a facade.. and i mean it.. we all have feelings.. think i don face stress at work? pls we all do. besides, i have my family and friends too just like u. who doesnt want to spend time with them? everyone does. i don understand.. its like i'm being marked and all.. tts how i feel.. i don care if u're reading this.. but this is what i feel. at least i'm honest. i don hide my feelings. if u seriously think i'm not good enough for the team. transfer me out! i don mind. i'm sure i can survive. getting scolded for helping someone else? come on man. i just don understand. well some ppl can badmouth and fabricate stuff. i mean now that the facts are out why are u quiet? where was the "ya-ya" attitude u had? huh? think abt it? stuff u said? things u did? it reflects what kind of person u are.. i'm not saying i'm perfect. just saying that sometimes its good to keep the mouth shut.::

.:Jeremy blogged on 12:52:00 AM:.
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::Its been quite some time since I touched this blog. Life has been up and down lately.. Things being fabricated against me.. losing my wallet and all my police issued items.. my work has been good so far. things are going well. but tiring nonetheless. 14 hrs.. thats how long i spend in the station. Now who were the people who said police is slack? sometimes i really feel like shouting back at people who said that. why don u come try it out? just try standing for 14 hrs with a few kgs on your waist in full uniform in the humid weather. well family camp kinda ended a while ago. the msgs seems to be rebuking for me.. i'm still struggling to deny myself and pick up my cross.. well on the bright side. i'm trying to get reaffirmed this Easter. But i dunno whether i'll get it due to my low attendance in cat class. Its so frustrating.. i work 3 sundays a month. and other duties.. "the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us." Romans 8:18 ORD is 13 months away! what a countdown.::

.:Jeremy blogged on 4:54:00 PM:.
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::work has been as usual.. boring.. well i don have much of a choice. but time passes pretty fast. two weeks to family camp! i'm seriously looking forward to it! my working environment isnt the very best place to work in. but well its kinda improving to a certain level. but the work has taken it toll on me.. i had to pull out of easter concert cos of my work shifts. always so tired. cant even go for cat class for certain reasons i had to swear an oath to not reveal them. seriously i find it a REAL struggle just to even pray nightly and read a little of the bible. i slp at weird timings but hopefully i'll be able to adapt to it. But i kinda realised only thru adversity will we see our true strengths and weaknesses. when everything is easy going we'll nv be tested. i really hope to pull thru this one..

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary; When troubles come and my heart burdened be; Then, I am still and wait here in the silence, Until you come and sit awhile with me. You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas; I am strong, when I am on your shoulders; You raise me up: To more than I can be. You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas; I am strong, when I am on your shoulders; You raise me up: To more than I can be. There is no life - no life without its hunger; Each restless heart beats so imperfectly; But when you come and I am filled with wonder, Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity. You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas; I am strong, when I am on your shoulders; You raise me up: To more than I can be. You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas; I am strong, when I am on your shoulders; You raise me up: To more than I can be.::

.:Jeremy blogged on 10:49:00 PM:.
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::I really thank God for church and all. it has given me a real sense of support. I realised that no matter how hard or difficult life can put me thru. i'll still have my church pals supporting me. And that i also have the Lord as my shield as my defender. Psalm 1 has really been a great encouragement to me. "Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the unGodly, nor stands in the path of sinners, nor sits in the seat of the scornful; but his DELIGHT is in the law of the Lord." it is really a great sense of comfort to hear that the Lord will protect me. But i have to do my part and trust in him. As we all face different kinds of ppl out in the world. Some may not be very nice. There are always back-stabbers, persecuters and the list is endless. But take heed. "For the Lord knows the way of the righteous, But the way of the ungodly shall PERISH." not literally but ya. I've learnt a valueable lesson from this experience. Compared to what Job had to go thru. mine is nothing.. So in times when the world seems like a dark place. Find comfort in the Lord as he will carry you thru the rough patches in life if only you believe and trust in him..::

.:Jeremy blogged on 3:08:00 AM:.
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::Christmas shld be a time of joy and all.. but i'm feeling really down and out.. almost everyone in church gives the cold shoulder.. as if i'm invisible.. my work isnt really help much too.. there is no joy.. in fact i find it a drag.. i mean i know i have no choice.. but working on christmas eve till christmas morning really sucks.. feeling as if i've got no friends and all.. its the same cycle all over and over agn.. my sundays are mostly burnt.. i spend my off days at home.. ever so tired.. i just don find anything to be joyful for.. honestly.. i've been skipping quite a bit of my quiet time.. sundays in church its always home after service and all.. there's no joy.. what joy? i don even wash toilets and all.. i don even find joy in serving the lord.. feeling jaded abt everything is seriously an understatement.. why does it seem so dark.. christmas never felt so dark before.. is there hope? if so where is it? can't seem to find it.. cant seem to slp properly and all.. GOD are u there?::

.:Jeremy blogged on 10:53:00 PM:.
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::I can't believe that you are influenced so easily.. i don't understand why the sudden cold shoulder.. but i aint dumb.. i deserve a reason and not an excuse.. i waited for so long and this is what i get?! just tell me how it feels if it was you in my shoes?! just the sudden turn about.. i mean i haven done anything wrong or sth really bad.. is it wrong on my part? if there is TELL me what it is! there are many things i don understand.. I really thank god upon every rememberance of YOU!::

.:Jeremy blogged on 8:57:00 PM:.
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::Work has been very tiring lately.. I'm a Radio Operator in the police force. Well this is what I do for the whole day.. TALK.. This is what happens everyday. A call I received yesterday.

(Phone ringing)

Me: Morning Ops Room

Female voice:(Sounding distressed) HELLO! IS THIS THE POLICE?! I NEED HELP NOW! MY BOYFRIEND IS ABUSING ME!

Me: Ok m'dam, Can i have ur location and may i know what's happening?

female voice: (starting to sound very angry) Why u ask me so many questions!?! CAN YOU JUST COME NOW?!?! I'M IN DANGER! WHAT KIND OF POLICE ARE YOU?!

Me: M'dam Can u pls calm down. if u don give me ur address and let me know what's happenening? i cant send a car to ur aid. (duh.)

Female voice: (starts to shout as if the phone is 10m away) I STAY IN *BLAH BLAH BLAH* MY BOYFRIEND IS OUTSIDE MY HSE. HE LOOKS LIKE HE WANTS TO BEAT ME UP! CAN U PLS COME NOW!?

Me: ok m'dam i'll send a car down asap. may i now have ur name and contact number?

female voice: Why must i give u? u want to date me ah?! sorry ah.. i don date loser policemen who cant even send a simple police car to aid me..

Me: (keeping my composure) m'dam i need ur contact and name so i can tell my car how to contact u upon arrival. (no wonder ur boyfriend wants to whack u)

female voice: (says her name and contact in a very unfriendly tone)

Me: ok thank you m'dam. i'll despatch the car asap.

(she just hangs up without even saying thank you)

After this i'll have to call the car thru the radio and inform them.

Me: Golf calling fiver three. fiver romeo three over.

5R3: Fiver three send over.

Me: Fiver three can u proceed to (address). Text msg is my boyfriend is abusing me can u come? over.

5R3: Roger. can u route msg to my MDT(mobile data terminal)?

Me: Roger. be advised. Caller is angry over.

5R3: Roger.

Me: Fiver three your ten two time(proceeding time) is zero niner one fiver. over.

5R3: Roger.

imagine doing this more than 30 times in 12 hrs. You'll go mad man.. and at the same time have to type in all the stuff. and follow up afterwards. abt 10 mins later.

(10 mins later)

5R3: fiver three golf ten seven(i've arrived)

Me: time check is zero niner two six. over.

5R3: Roger.

(20 mins later) while waiting, other calls will come in. you learn how to multi task here man. trust me.

5R3: fiver three calling golf over.

Me: fiver three send over.

5R3: inform facts over.

Me: Roger. call my extension at one zero over.

5R3: Roger.

(calls my phone and inform facts abt what happened)

Me: Fiver three your ten three time will be one zero two fiver over.

5R3: Roger.

After which the case is closed. its 1 down 29 more to go. and its on a typical weekday. weekends are much worse and public holidays too.

so how many of u want to sign on as a police officer?







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.:Jeremy blogged on 1:07:00 AM:.
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