::Christmas shld be a time of joy and all.. but i'm feeling really down and out.. almost everyone in church gives the cold shoulder.. as if i'm invisible.. my work isnt really help much too.. there is no joy.. in fact i find it a drag.. i mean i know i have no choice.. but working on christmas eve till christmas morning really sucks.. feeling as if i've got no friends and all.. its the same cycle all over and over agn.. my sundays are mostly burnt.. i spend my off days at home.. ever so tired.. i just don find anything to be joyful for.. honestly.. i've been skipping quite a bit of my quiet time.. sundays in church its always home after service and all.. there's no joy.. what joy? i don even wash toilets and all.. i don even find joy in serving the lord.. feeling jaded abt everything is seriously an understatement.. why does it seem so dark.. christmas never felt so dark before.. is there hope? if so where is it? can't seem to find it.. cant seem to slp properly and all.. GOD are u there?::

.:Jeremy blogged on 10:53:00 PM:.
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::I can't believe that you are influenced so easily.. i don't understand why the sudden cold shoulder.. but i aint dumb.. i deserve a reason and not an excuse.. i waited for so long and this is what i get?! just tell me how it feels if it was you in my shoes?! just the sudden turn about.. i mean i haven done anything wrong or sth really bad.. is it wrong on my part? if there is TELL me what it is! there are many things i don understand.. I really thank god upon every rememberance of YOU!::

.:Jeremy blogged on 8:57:00 PM:.
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